Thursday, October 21, 2010

The hope of surrender...

I woke up this morning with this song running through me:

Where You go, I'll go
Where You stay, I'll stay
When You move, I'll move
I will follow You
Who You love, I'll love
How You serve, I'll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow You
I will follow You...
Those are powerful words. I wonder how many of us who listen to it really mean it, though? I know, in my own case, my life does not reflect a heart that does mean these words. So often I don't move with Him. In fact, sometimes I'm afraid I'm actually moving against Him!

And yet, this is the cry of my heart. To follow His leading with this decree of dedication. To love whom He loves (namely, everyone). To serve as He served (namely, the complete emptying of myself in every aspect of my life, even to death if He so desires).

I don't want this from any sense of obligation or conviction that I should want this. I want it because I am firmly convinced that this is where ultimate peace and joy and fulfillment lie. I know that in giving every moment of my life completely to Him, I will find something...a life...that so far eclipses anything I have ever known that it will defy description...that only those who are also finding it will be able to comprehend what I mean when I speak of it. A life that will call and draw the lost and hurting with a power that they won't be able to explain, even as they discover that they cannot refuse it...that they don't want to refuse it.

The thing is...I look at myself and know that it is only through Him that I can give Him everything completely. Then I look at others, see that they aren't living for Him completely...and I feel all alone.

How devious are the lies the devil whispers to us! And how steady the onslaught of pride is!


Here is a fact. This song is currently #9 on the Christian Billboard charts. ie: A song that speaks of total surrender...a total laying down of my wants and desires...total sacrifice...words that fly in the face of materialism and the pervading "looking out for number one" attitude of today...are being sung by tens of thousands of Christians.

Seriously!!!

Sooo...are we all singing this without really meaning it? I doubt it. And you know why I doubt it? Because I clearly remember myself, at the age of 8 or 9, fighting inside myself because I could not lie and sing words I didn't mean. For I could not honestly say that "I would give my final breath to know You in Your death and resurrection." Oh, how glad I am that God is allowing me to know Him in that way anyway! For what is breath in comparison with Him?

And if there aren't tens of thousands of Christians singing this song...then how is it rising so quickly up the charts?

No...I am clearly not alone. There are obviously tens of thousands of you also echoing this, the cry of your heart.

To all of you, I say, "Hi! Me, too!" ::joyful smiles of comradeship::

And when I picture all of us, you know what I see? I see into the future, where there is an army that moves across the land, restoring instead of devastating. An army that moves in perfect, beautiful, and rippling unison as one, because each member follows the Commander perfectly.

That is what He is preparing us to be. And the hearts that sing this song are those being prepared for this glorious destiny.

We need God to open the eyes of our hearts to see His moves more and more. Yes, the world is growing darker and sin is increasing. But so is hope. God is most definitely moving and preparing us for something awesome. Something which is so powerful that only perfect obedience to Him can contain it.

And as I typed this up, I heard Him whisper, "Yes. This is what I am doing."

Is anyone else excited?

God, I proclaim that You are my Lord. Not only are You my friend, You are my Master, and I ask for the grace to walk according to Your leading. Work in me until I truly am going when You go, staying when You stay, and moving when You move. Teach me to love whom You love how You love them. Give me Your grace to serve how You served. For I will follow You, and You alone.

6 comments:

  • B. Allen says:
    Thursday, October 21, 2010

    Katie~

    I think you are right on! I love the song! This is the first time I have heard it. I, like you, have a heart overflowing with the desire to submit to Him. (More so now than ever before.)

    His patience humbles me as I look back and see the spots where I have missed it. His forgiveness overwhelms me as I feel His love wash over me and reassure me that I am still His, despite my stumblings. Every day, being brought closer to total unity with Him. The peace. The rest. How amazing.

    Your post made me think…

    I feel like every day the divide grows between the faithful and non. I have never cared for all of the “Chicken Littles” who say “the end is coming, the end is coming”. (The Bible says we may know the season, but not the date and time.) With each day though, as I look around me, I find myself becoming one of them. I know that I will be one of your “army that moves across the land, restoring instead of devastating”, but I feel like there is so much I have yet to do. The one reassurance I stand on is:

    “Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:” ~ Philippians 1:6 (King James Version)

    Oh how I want to finish my race strong and complete all the good works He has in me. I am so thankful that He knows us and gently brings us to Him. Thank you Father. We love you!

    Hope that was not too off topic.

    Thank you Katie. Great post!
    PS. I did get the start of the blog up. http://man-after-gods-own-heart.blogspot.com/

  • Katie says:
    Friday, October 22, 2010

    Hi! No, not off-topic at all. It is reassuring to know that He will complete the good work He began...and to know that He will complete it! He doesn't rely on us to! (Thank goodness!)

    He is so good!

  • Katie says:
    Friday, October 22, 2010

    PS...I was thinking of you quite a bit yesterday as I was singing this son over and over and over again. :-) I wondered if you'd heard it.

  • Crown of Beauty says:
    Saturday, October 23, 2010

    Dear Katie...
    Me, too. I'm with you.

    I loved EVERY word of this post...had to read some lines slowly, to savor the beauty of what you were saying.

    Mike Bickle once said, God enjoys us even in our immaturity.

    That's awesome. He knows what we desire, but He also know what we're up against. And He's with us in the process of getting there.

    Thanks for your beautiful, definitely God inspired, post.

    Love
    Lidj

  • Kristina Boes says:
    Wednesday, October 27, 2010

    Yes!! Exactly--I know just what you mean. As I was reading your post, I was like, "She totally GETS it!" Especially the part about not wanting to follow out of obligation or guilt. I prayed a few months back that God would help me love Him more...and He HAS! And then I asked Him to help me love His Word more...and, you guessed it...He HAS! And I also asked Him to help me WANT to spend more time in prayer--and He did it again!! It's amazing...I was like, "Why did I wait so long to just ask Him for this?" I've been a Christian for so many years, but I have never experienced God like this before. He's amazing, and that's an understatement.

  • Katie says:
    Wednesday, October 27, 2010

    :-) Kristina. He is awesome!

    It's great to see you over here!

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